About Me
I do not recommend letting your kids read the things I write.
This is a therapeutic tool and most of the times when I write here I am trying to discard the madness and fever that make me tremble with fear for losing my mind and my family. There may be times I write good wholesome stuff or, at least, stuff that is not quite so dark or horrible. I don't feel I am a horrible person but I am going through some very trying times and some terrible changes are happening in me.
Immigration. Anger management. Personality disorder. Severe depression. Violent behavior and chronic outburts of anger and other emotions. Memory loss. Assault. Fatherhood. Masculinity. Role models. Sexuality. Sex. Drugs. These are some of the things I will be touching on as I delve into myself not the world around me because it is myself that is sick and wrong and myself I must change in order to keep my family and my life.
Recent Entries
What's new with you?
so i'd been away for a while but meant to come back. i had another run-in with the law. i tried to run somebody off the road. i felt terr... read more
My son's birthday
So David will be 6 this year. His birthday will be this weekend and we have many special plans for the whole weekend including Memorial Day.&nbs... read more
Then the clouds parted and God said, "I love you."
Days ago life looked bleak. But I was persistant despite my trouble. I did not give up. I was quite despondent. Life had beat me dow... read more
In trouble again
I am so disgusted with myself. I got into trouble again. I got tazed AGAIN. I went to jail. AGAIN. I went to the gym early Monday morn. All good,... read more
Threshold
it takes next to nothing. the passed few days i have been feeling a general malaise but today it has escalated to a full anger. someone dr... read more
Days of Silence
Three days, maybe four, I've been sulking. Thinking negative thoughts. I wonder if my meds are working correctly or if I need to have them... read more
Miller Time - Dances with Kiki (part 2)
Now that he had Kiki's keys, he figured he'd search the car then come back to his barracks room and have some more fun with the boy. Then there ... read more
Miller Time - Dances with Kiki (part 1)
The first time Kiki had met Miller, it was love at first sight. Miller, of course, looked like an easy mark. Kiki had experience with marks like Mill... read more
Son of Samson
society determines what is appropriate or inappropriate behavior. i know. and i must do as society expects or i will be judged unfit to be part of s... read more
Miller Time - The Fall of Man
Left to die, face down in the sand and the sun going down fast. Miller could hear the sound of his enemies' vehicles moving away. He tried to summon... read more
